the aspects of nihilism

Now I almost couldn't fight the desire to post on the nihilism comments on Bellas post whats it all about?. But saying something like that is RIght, seems like you are playing a dangerous ballgame at the best. Spiritual illness has this way of grabbing you behind your back. However, sooner or later there comes a time in every mans life, when you must stand face to face with death, and it doesnt look as glamourous after that. I believe having to work in the hospital envirionment changed me a bit in this aspect. And although it wasnt a nice experience, it changed me for the better. I would have felt better though, if I had just been able to continue in the comfortable way i used to live. Nihilism can be something you use to numb yourself, when you don't want to feel. It always feels better if you can worship your illness. But your right, that hedonism is the answer, maybe thats why it always feels so hollow. then we are a generation of nihilism, totally lost, to the dreamscape of hollywood perfectionism, but redundant to both the good and bad parts of our own reality.
Likn had a concert on thursday, first one for awhile, and it was pretty good, although we didn't get to play until half past midnight, which sucked. The other bands were playing like it was a two band concert. Three acts is kind of alot for two and a half hours anyway. And playing after midnight on a weekday is stupid, because most people have gone home by then. But Rome wasnt built in a day, and I know that this project might take years. It's just wierd how life can be endlessly slow moving. I'm always ahead of myself, i worry about the future all the time, i regret the past, but forget the now. anxiety rules the horizon, at all times.
ps. theres one new song on the líkn website, it's called beyond sickness.